-31- [Flood - Not Affected, he's a Total Liar]

[tatty_bye]

I long for friendships, but I have long forgotten how to form them. I feel undeserving. I bring people to my bed, constantly, because I am afraid to be alone. I drank when I was able because I was unhappy. I still am. So...so very desperately unhappy. I often speak publicly, on behalf of the Admiral, or to say cruel or scandalous things, because I feel safest when I am in the public eye. I do long to be different. I simply know no proper way to bring about change, and I hesitate to ask because I feel no one will understand me.

[Private to Merlin]

So... tell me about Aredian.

Comments

Private

[glad-of-war.livejournal.com]

So I'm guessing since you didn't feel compelled to correct me and educate me on all the things I don't understand about you, your teary little confession is some nicely packaged bullshit?

Private

[tatty-bye.livejournal.com]

I feel it has failed to occur to you that I cannot educate you perhaps because I do not know how to.