-31- [Flood - Not Affected, he's a Total Liar]

[tatty_bye]

I long for friendships, but I have long forgotten how to form them. I feel undeserving. I bring people to my bed, constantly, because I am afraid to be alone. I drank when I was able because I was unhappy. I still am. So...so very desperately unhappy. I often speak publicly, on behalf of the Admiral, or to say cruel or scandalous things, because I feel safest when I am in the public eye. I do long to be different. I simply know no proper way to bring about change, and I hesitate to ask because I feel no one will understand me.

[Private to Merlin]

So... tell me about Aredian.

Comments

[buywithme.livejournal.com]

This resonates closely with my own experiences of being an inmate.

I would really like to be able to extend some kind of reassurance to you, but I don't really know anything about you, and I think the reasons why I felt like this are very different to the reasons why you feel like this, so I don't think I can contribute anything useful.

[tatty-bye.livejournal.com]

You are probably right about our reasons differing, but I do not know your reasons.