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I long for friendships, but I have long forgotten how to form them. I feel undeserving. I bring people to my bed, constantly, because I am afraid to be alone. I drank when I was able because I was unhappy. I still am. So...so very desperately unhappy. I often speak publicly, on behalf of the Admiral, or to say cruel or scandalous things, because I feel safest when I am in the public eye. I do long to be different. I simply know no proper way to bring about change, and I hesitate to ask because I feel no one will understand me.
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So... tell me about Aredian.
[Private to Merlin]
So... tell me about Aredian.
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Date: 2011-09-26 06:46 pm (UTC)From:If you know that name at all then I doubt there's very much I can add.
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Date: 2011-09-26 07:18 pm (UTC)From:I would really like to be able to extend some kind of reassurance to you, but I don't really know anything about you, and I think the reasons why I felt like this are very different to the reasons why you feel like this, so I don't think I can contribute anything useful.
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Date: 2011-09-27 01:40 am (UTC)From: