![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
I long for friendships, but I have long forgotten how to form them. I feel undeserving. I bring people to my bed, constantly, because I am afraid to be alone. I drank when I was able because I was unhappy. I still am. So...so very desperately unhappy. I often speak publicly, on behalf of the Admiral, or to say cruel or scandalous things, because I feel safest when I am in the public eye. I do long to be different. I simply know no proper way to bring about change, and I hesitate to ask because I feel no one will understand me.
[Private to Merlin]
So... tell me about Aredian.
[Private to Merlin]
So... tell me about Aredian.
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 07:37 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 07:50 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 08:30 pm (UTC)From:You could have at least tried to be subtle.
no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 08:35 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 08:36 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 08:40 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2011-09-26 08:43 pm (UTC)From: